FORGIVE ME FOR MAKING FAITH HARD
My prayer as I think of times when I bought into the "measure up" brand of faith
FORMATION AND DE-FORMATION. According to Dr. Christine Pohl, gratitude is an essential part of healthy spiritual formation. She says we also experience spiritual de-formation when its opposites are expressed and experienced. A brief contemplation on gratitude can bring to mind not only all we take for granted and have to be grateful for, but also our own past ingratitude and unthoughtful contributions to the de-formation of others. That's what brought about the following confession.
HARD FAITH. I observed a person whose bearing, mannerisms, and words made it evident that he works very hard at his way of faith. He works hard at believing and defending what he believes. He bolsters himself against straw men with postulated, ever-ready arguments. He wears his faith on his sleeve to ward off whatever questions or inquiries may arise. He works hard at his faith. I wonder if he ever grows weary. I did. Recalling a book which freed me from this treadmill, Tired Of Trying To Measure Up by Jeff VanVonderen, I wanted offer him grace. Aware of my life of ministry, some of which has been conveyed from this "trying harder" mode, this confession formed in me:
For all the times I have tried to make holiness happen on my terms: forgive me.
For making faith appear hard to those under my care: forgive me.
For those who have perceived that faith was hard because of my words or actions: have mercy.
For times when pride of faith has made me falsely comfortable and feel superior: forgive me.
For glances or looks that have conveyed disapproval or disdain for the faith efforts of others: forgive me.
For words that have conveyed “not enough” to those who are cleaving to You: forgive me.
For the sense of earning or working or toiling to be right with You: deliver me.
For conveyed norms of dress, style, or form which make faith seem hard: forgive us.
For interpretations of the Bible which appear hidden, exclusive or obscure: forgive us.
For loading free grace down with imposed conditions and contrived costs: forgive me.
Forgive me for making faith seem hard.
Let me be reminded often of the terms of faith: grace, grace, grace.
And though it cost me everything, let me proclaim grace freely and faithfully all the rest of my days.
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